Tuesday, March 9, 2010

The Lists: Movies

Movies:
Listed in chronological order, as opposed to ranking. I couldn't pick a favorite - might be Old Joy, might be The Haunting, depending on the day.

1. The Wolf Man (1941, d. George Waggner) - The best of the old Universal monster pictures, partly for the performances, partly for the chemistry between Lon Chaney Jr. and Evelyn Ankers, partly for the cinematography, but mostly because of the way Larry's blindsided by chance, and then has to deal with that. And in the end, he's really not able to. He's the most self-aware, the most poignant and the most human of the classic monsters.

2. The Best Years of Our Lives (1946, d. William Wyler) - One of those films that always gets me. A lot of the time, when I'm watching a studio era drama, I feel like there's a veneer between myself and the characters. As good as the films can be, as accomplished their artistry, I rarely feel as directly engaged as I do with post-studio era dramas.

It's not because of any resistance to older films on my part, or because I haven't spent enough time watching them (I have done plenty of that). It's probably partly a result of acting styles, partly a result of the kinds of moments that are shown, and how those moments are conveyed by the cinematography and editing. Somehow, I rarely buy the characters as real people, and can't get past the performances as performances. And outside of certain types of stories and certain genres, I'm usually interested in films about how people deal, internally, with the things life throws their way. Or how the internal interacts with or collides with the external. Or something like that. I'm not saying that the characters of most studio films don't have an internal psychology, or that this isn't conveyed, but it almost always feels a step removed for me, less immediate.

This probably makes me sound like a jerky "old stuff's no good because they didn't know how to do it right" sort of guy, but that's very definitely not where I'm coming from. But you know, it's like the way a well-executed special effect is able to convince you, in the moment, that it's real, even if only for a moment. I get the dramatic equivalent of that more often from contemporary films. And I'm not saying contemporary films are more realistic or any less stylized or anything like that. But something changes during the sixties which opens film drama up to something more effective and more impactful. Potentially, at least. For me, at least.

All of which is a long way of getting to why I find "Best Years" to be so good. That veneer's not there. The drama works in the moment.

3. Ikiru (1952, d. Akira Kurosawa) - Kurosawa was the director that got me interested in studying film. I guess I've seen about two thirds of the movies he made, give or take. This is my favorite. I weep every time I watch this film. And not during the scene on the swing (though that gets me), but during the night-on-the-town sequence. There's two moments: when Watanabe (Takashi Shimura) sings the song in the piano bar and everyone and everything slows down to listen; and when, at the end of the night, Watanabe gives the writer that gentle, hopeless look outside the cab, then raises his head and tries to smile to reassure him, and the girls, oblivious, start singing "Come on-a my house..." If this isn't the best film ever made, it's close.

4. Stalag 17 (1953, d. Billy Wilder) - "At ease!" A comfort film, one I'd often watch at the end of the semester in grad school, as I tried to get my bearings again.

5. Godzilla (1954, d. Ishiro Honda) - There's something about Godzilla's roar that always sends a little chill down my spine. Conjures up a sense of awe. Can't really explain it. It's just the way it is. There's also something about the music for this film that captures the sense of weight, of Godzilla's titanic stomping about. Both are the product of composer Akira Ifukube. And while special effects master Eiji Tsuburaya originally wanted to do this stop-motion, isn't it better that he didn't?

6. Seven Samurai (1954, d. Akira Kurosawa) - Takashi Shimura shooting arrows in the rain.

7. Night of the Hunter (1955, d. Charles Laughton) - Robert Mitchum and Lillian Gish sing a great duet. This was the first film I wrote a close analysis for, analyzing the boat down the river sequence. Wrote that quite a long time ago now, back when I thought I knew where I was going.

8. The Magnificent Seven (1960, d. John Sturges) - Wish I was cool like Steve McQueen.

9. The Haunting (1963, d. Robert Wise) - The best horror film ever made, not only because of the quality of the writing, the cinematography and the sound design, but also because it's so character centered. I probably see too much of myself in the damaged, perpetual wallflower Eleanor, but there you go. Wish I had the poise of Claire Bloom in this film.


10. Ghidora, the Three-Headed Monster (1964, d. Ishiro Honda) - Godzilla, Mothra and Rodan take on Ghidorah, the three-headed monster. It's like the Seven Samurai of kaiju eiga.

11. Cool Hand Luke (1967, d. Stuart Rosenberg) - Wish I was cool like Cool Hand Luke.

12. Quatermass and the Pit (1967, d. Roy Ward Baker) - "Your imagination's running wild." "Isn't yours?"

13. A Boy Named Charlie Brown (1969, d. Bill Melendez) - There are few characters I have identified with so thoroughly as Charlie Brown. Of all the Stew Fyfes in the world, I'm the Charlie Browniest. This is a cool, weird film that's full of elaborate digressions, like when Schroeder's playing his piano. Watching it is kind of like reading a collection of Schulz strips. And it hits some very real emotional notes.

14. Paint Your Wagon (1969, d. Joshua Logan) - Wish I was born under a wandering star. A wandering, wandering star.

15. The Valley of Gwangi (1969, d. Jim O'Connolly) - Growing up, there used to always be a monster or sci fi movie on TV on Saturday afternoons. Usually just one movie, on one channel, since there weren't as many channels back then. If you were lucky, it was a good one like this. Cowboys versus dinosaurs. Dinosaur versus elephant. James Franciscus versus a tyrannosaurus in a giant stone cathedral that's on fire. And a little, tiny horse.

In the years between when I first saw this movie and when I found it again on DVD, there was a scene that always stuck with me. It's the scene where T.J. (Gila Golan, the lady of the picture) shows Tuck Kirby (James Franciscus, the hero of the picture) the eohippus she's going to incorporate into her rodeo show. The looks on their faces, as this little Ray Harryhausen creature capers around before them has always been to me the image of delight.

Three other great things here. First, your classic dinosaur fight with a difference. Second, the incongruity of seeing the cathedral architecture tower over a dinosaur. And third, Gwangi gets his own screen credit
at the end.

16. Two-Lane Blacktop (1971, d. Monte Hellman) - "Those satisfactions are permanent." For once, GTO speaks truth.

17. Snoopy Come Home (1972, d. Bill Melendez) - My favorite animated film. Like the earlier film, there's real emotion here, as Charlie Brown deals with something we all have to deal with - friends having to go their separate ways. One of the many great things about this movie is that there's drama, but there's no villain. Apart from the jerks who keep putting up the signs that say "No Dogs Allowed," that is. One other great thing: the song, "Changes." And still one other great thing: the song, "Me and You."

18. Young Frankenstein (1974, d. Mel Brooks) - "Put. Ze kendle. Beck."

19. The Outlaw Josey Wales (1976, d. Clint Eastwood) - "All I have is a piece of hard rock candy. But it's not for eatin'. It's just for looking through." I'm not generally big on westerns, but this movie has everything I like about westerns. It's also very beautiful at times, between moments of mud and blood and death. Wish I could spit like Josey Wales.

20. Dawn of the Dead (1978, d. George A. Romero) - The best zombie film. Shot in my hometown mall, so watching the film is always a weirdly comforting experience for me. We moved to Pittsburgh in 1979, when the Monroeville Mall was pretty much as it appeared in the film - I remember skating on that ice skating rink - so for me, there's a level of reality to this film that I guess isn't there for most people.

One of the many things that makes this film great, apart from carving out new territory in the subgenre, is that while it does the character-gets-bit thing, establishes the character-gets-bit thing really, the film doesn't use it just to create a bit of cheap suspense. The first time it happens, it's about watching a guy who was full of life ("We got this by the ass!") fade and go, and it's about watching how the other characters react to that loss. And when the other character who gets it gets it, it's part of the everything-going-to-hell movement of the last act, and it's really about the reaction one character has to the zombification.

Another great thing about the film is the degree of sympathy it often has for the zombies. Look at the expression on Fran's face as she sits there watching the softball player zombie, the one in the orange Pitcairn shirt, or the way she sets free the nun zombie when it's caught in the doors at Penney's. And when the main characters get turned, they aren't just something needs to be shot in the head. The problem with the modern running zombie is that it's just a monster with no other meaning or resonance. It might as well be a pack of hungry lions or a big CGI concoction or something. The classic zombie, among other things, is all about the inevitability and concrete reality of death, which eventually takes those we love, and eventually takes us as well.

21. Days of Heaven (1978, d. Terrance Malick) - Well, it's all very sad at times, but it's all so very good.

22. All That Jazz (1979, d. Bob Fosse) - "It's showtime, folks!" The final musical number, a ten-minute version of "Bye Bye Life"is one of the most emotional things I've ever seen on film. It's so crazy and cheesy and goofy as hell, but it's done with such conviction and energy, pulling every element of the film together into one elaborate, stylized over the top performance that you're carried away. And then the last minute kicks in and - wow, just wow.

23. The Empire Strikes Back (1980, d. Irvin Kershner) - I remember sitting in the theater before the movie started, looking at the empty white screen, making jokes with my friends about polar bears in blizzards, since we'd known something of how the film would begin, and since we'd just heard that joke. I also remember, some time later, debating with friends as to whether or not Vader was lying. Because we just didn't know.

24. An American Werewolf in London (1981, d. John Landis) - Everything that's great about The Wolf Man is here, only more so. Great use of "Moondance." And a perfect cut to black at the end.

25. Dragonslayer (1981, d. Matthew Robbins) - Probably the best of the early eighties fantasy films. Maybe because it's so sincere. Maybe because it doesn't overdo things. (Which is the problem with a lot of contemporary sci fi/fantasy/horror - the filmmakers are always trying to make the film into the most whatever of whatever, and wind up making everything feel dull and the same as a result.) Maybe the film's the best because, apart from the dragon, the villains aren't doing bad things just to be villains, they're doing bad things based on what they think needs to be done. And even the dragon's just being a dragon. And what a dragon it is. Favorite scene is at the village dance.

26. Escape from New York (1981, d. John Carpenter) - Growing up, I think my models for ideal masculinity were Kurt Russell in Escape from New York and The Thing, Clint Eastwood in Josey Wales, and Mel Gibson in The Road Warrior. Taciturn and talented. Obviously, things didn't work out that way. Also, I wanted an eyepatch.

27. Knightriders (1981, d. George A. Romero) - This is another film that's goofy as hell - Ed Harris and Tom Savini lead a traveling band of jousting motorcycle knights through rural Pennsylvania, and the Man wants them to sell out - but if you tune in to its frequency, it's quite affecting. And the goofiness and unlikeliness of the premise, and of the group, feeds back into the whole be-yourself, hold-to-your-ideals, got-to-fight-the-dragon vibe. There's also some great stunts, a fine score by Donald Rubinstein, a simple but certain pro-gay stance (which you didn't see in too many films in 1981), and great performances by Harris, Savini (very charismatic) and Christine Forrest. This is the quintessential Romero film.

28. The Road Warrior (1981, d. George Miller) - Wish I could drive like Max Rockatansky. Wish I had a dog like Max Rockatansky's dog.

A few of the great things about this film: the opening montage, which elevates the previous film to mythical status while establishing the new world of the current film; the score; the willingness to forgo dialogue for so much of the film, particularly near the beginning; the relationship between Max and the Gyro Captain; the shot of the Gyro Captain backing away from the can of dog food; the dog; the final shot; and the greatest chase sequence ever put to film.

Something else The Road Warrior does so well is to expand and advance the world and reality we'd seen in Mad Max. Many franchises of the sci-fi/fantasy/horror variety falter after the first film, or at least don't quite retain the magic after the first film, partly because of how the films in these genres are often constructed.

What they often do in the first film (or in a stand-alone film, if there's no initial plan for a franchise or sequel) is to establish bunch of characters in a setting, let you get comfortable with it (in the deserts of a distant land, at Port Royal, on Tatooine, etc.), and then partway through the film, pose to the characters and the audience the possibility of there being a greater reality beyond what the character's normally experience and what the audience has to this point seen (there's an Ark of the Covenant that really does have strange and terrible powers, there's an ancient mummy with strange and terrible powers buried beneath the sands, the Black Pearl is a cursed ghost ship crewed by a bunch of undead skeleton guys, the Force really works, etc.) The film then, either midway through or near the end, ushers the characters and the audience across that threshold, into that wider, more fantastic reality.

Part of what a lot of films in the sci-fi/fantasy/horror genres are engaged in during their running times is a kind of exploration of new territory, a survey of imaginary worlds. Part of what brings us to these films is that movement into a wider world, that moment of wonder. Once you've made this move, however, you can't make it again, or at least can't make the same one again. We watch Temple of Doom, and we know those stones from the village are going to have power; we watch The Mummy Returns, and we already know Imhotep can rise up; we know that magic abounds in the world of Jack Sparrow; we know Obi-Wan wasn't just whistling dixie about the Force. When we watch the second Matrix film, we've already seen Neo wake up, we know he's the One, has superpowers and can fly and stuff. You can only play that card once. Any new revelations in the Matrix sequels are revelations only of degree.

So how do you keep people interested in the sequels? In the films that follow the original, you've either got to really advance the story and develop the characters, as well as truly deepen the mythology, as in Empire and Jedi, or you've got to come up with some new, top-notch adventure that doesn't simply recycle the story beats of the first film, as in Temple of Doom and Last Crusade. (By deepening the mythology in the Star Wars films, I mean things like Luke's training with Yoda, which gives us a deeper understanding of the Force and of the Jedi, and I mean things like the decisions Luke has to make during his final battle with Vader and the Emperor.) If you don't, you can wind up with a film that's maybe okay, but just doesn't have the magic of the first film, as in The Mummy Returns, the second and third Pirates movies, the second and third Matrix movies, where new backstory is shoehorned in to create new obstacles and goals for protagonists who'd already achieved whatever it was they needed to do in the first film, and in so doing, those characters have already overcome whatever character deficits or doubts they might have been initially plagued by. Or something like that.

What makes The Road Warrior relatively rare among sequels is that it does something different. The Star Wars films take us to new planets, but the overall situation and setting are more or less the same from film to film, and while the new environments offer new challenges, opportunities and betrayals, they do not in and of themselves affect Luke and company on a fundamental level. The Lord of the Rings films also offer new environments, ushering us across Middle Earth and expanding the scope of the central conflict from film to film, or expanding the protagonists' and audience's awareness of that scope, but the trilogy is essentially one story split up into three films. But The Road Warrior remakes the world of the story (once a decaying society, now a fully post-apocalyptic society) and then places the lead character from the first film into that new world and watches how he functions. The shift from the world of Mad Max to the world of The Road Warrior is deeper and more fundamental than what we see in most sequels.

The Road Warrior engages in an exploration of who Max is that proceeds in parallel with the exploration of the new world of the post-apocalyptic Outback. The film is about what both Max and the world have to do to stay alive in the wake of calamity, and about how much longer each can go on like this before the wheels come off, the gas runs out, and everything comes to an end. The sequel becomes a different film, separate from rather than a retread or direct continuation of the original.

I guess another way of looking at it is to think of Mad Max and The Road Warrior in terms of the basic question posed by each narrative. In Mad Max, the question is: Will Max lose his humanity? In The Road Warrior, the question is: Now that Max has lost his humanity, will he be able to regain it? Rather than reiterating the conflict of the first film, the sequel builds off of the the consequences of that conflict, not so much on the level of plot as on the level of character. I don't know, I don't think I'm quite getting down what I mean to say, so I'll stop now.

29. Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981, d. Steven Spielberg) - One of my fondest filmgoing memories is of getting to go see this in the theater with my Dad. Usually, my brother and I saw movies with my Mom, but Pete wanted to go see Arthur, so he and my Mom saw that instead. My Dad's not a movie-watching kind of guy. His attention usually wanders. But it's pretty cool when I get him to sit and watch a movie, and he gets into it. I still remember us laughing together as we walked out of the theater. Two other memorable times watching films with my Dad: watching a VHS of Evil Dead II one summer down in Texas with Dad and my friend Bill, listening to my Dad shout with laughter when the comedy started kicking in; and watching The Life Aquatic on a laptop with him when we were sitting in a hotel in San Antonio, waiting to find out if he'd be admitted into the cancer treatment program at Audie Murphy.

30. Veronika Voss (1982, d. Rainer Werner Fassbinder) - Fassbinder recasts Sunset Boulevard into a critique of post-war German society. Which is great. But the part that always stays with me is the scene of Robert Krohn meeting Veronika Voss in the rain and offering her his umbrella. That and the mix of concern and resignation that Robert's girlfriend Henriette displays as she watches Robert get sucked into Veronika's world. And the musical dream sequence. This was also the first film where I sat down and watched and tried to analyze every single individual shot. (It was for a take-home exam.) It's one of those films that always reminds me of how hopeful and certain and full of potential things seemed when I was at Pitt. Which I guess is ironic, given what the film's about, and how it ends.

31. Cannery Row (1982, d. David S. Ward) - "It never occurred to them that maybe they weren't any good. So they decided to give it one more try." A largely forgotten romantic comedy built out of bits of Steinbeck. Marine biologist and former pitcher Nick Nolte, dressed like Indiana Jones, romances out-of-work waitress and amateur floozy Debra Winger, while Mac (M. Emmet Walsh) and the Boys (including Frank McRae) try to help out around town, flophouse owner Fauna (Audra Lindley) rolls her eyes, and John Huston narrates. Shot by Sven Nykvist. Comes with a beer milkshake.

32. The Last Unicorn (1982, d. Jules Bass, Arthur Rankin Jr.) - Okay, I'm a dork. And I love the opening song, so I'm a total dork.

33. Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan (1982, d. Nicholas Meyer) - It's pretty darn good. But you know that.

34. The Thing (1982, d. John Carpenter) - After The Haunting, the best horror film ever made. Also, along with An American Werewolf in London, the peak of physical monster effects. And a perfect ending. And then there's the blood test scene. And the bit with the head. And the scene at the Norwegian camp. And the Morricone/Carpenter score. And Kurt Russell being all Kurt Russelly. And Keith David being all Keith David. And lots of good stuff.

35. Local Hero (1983, d. Bill Forsyth) - "I'd make a good Gordon, Gordon." Though really, I probably wouldn't.

36. Something Wicked This Way Comes (1983, d. Jack Clayton) - One of those films that's good because it deals with things that are true. I think about the scene in the library a lot.

37. Paris, Texas (1984, d. Wim Wenders) - "I knew these people, these two people..." I feel like Harry Dean Stanton some days - just want to go for a walk.

38. Mad Max Beyond Thunderdome (1985, d. George Miller) - "This ain't one person's tell, it's the tell of us all. And you got to listen it, and 'member..." It doesn't have quite the same spark as The Road Warrior, and the final chase doesn't quite measure up to what came before, but otherwise, Miller makes a worthy film, moving both the character and the world forward as both Max and the world enter a period of reconstruction. Thunderdome hits some strong emotional notes, and like the previous film, brings things to a close with a great ending. This really is quite a film. Always have that defiant "Keep trekking" phrase in my head.

39. Big Trouble in Little China (1986, d. John Carpenter) - "What's that, potion?" "Yeah." "Good. Thought so. What do we do, drink it?" "Yeah." "Good. Thought so."

40. Miller's Crossing (1990, d. Joel and Ethan Coen) - If Kurosawa was the director that made me want to study film, then before that, this was the film that made me start thinking about how films work, and really start appreciate film as an art, back when I first saw it over Christmas break of 1990. I taped the audio off of my VHS onto a couple of cassette tapes, and used to just listen to the dialogue from this film over and over.

41. Ruby in Paradise (1993, d. Victor Nunez) - Again, a film that's good because it deals with things that are true, but in a different arena than Something Wicked, one that's more immediately relevant to my life these days. It's about that kind of time where you have to take a breath, take stock of who you are and where you're at, who you might be and where you're going.

42. Barcelona (1994, d. Whit Stillman) - "What do you call what's above the subtext?" Although it's about a pair of cousins, this film does a good job of giving a sense of what the relationship between brothers is like. And it's funny by way of being smart. There's not enough of that these days.

43. Chungking Express (1994, Wong Kar-wai) - Another film caught up in my thoughts about my time at Pitt, one that somehow always seemed to come up at the end of the semester. Faye Wong's cover in Cantonese of The Cranberries song "Dreams" captures a sense of how I was feeling in those days, on the good days, and how I felt moving from Pittsburgh to Madison. It also makes me want to spin around and maybe ride an escalator.

44. The Blade (1995, d. Tsui Hark) - The most intense action film I've ever seen. A remake of the old "One-Armed Swordsman" films, with a swordsmith who loses an arm, takes up a broken blade, reads a half-burnt martial arts manual, and takes on the bad guys with a crazy spinning technique while dodging lost love and lots of bear traps. Second time I saw this on the big screen, I remember walking home after, the muscles in my chest still tight from the intensity of the final fight scene.

There's a sequence where the protagonist, On, is training using the half-burnt martial arts manual. On has lost his sword arm to the bad guys, and he has to learn from scratch. He's moved into farm in the sticks with a peasant girl, the farm now partly burnt down by a bandit attack. It's a 90s Hong Kong movie sort of night, all backlit and smoky and blue. And he's tied a rope around his waist and hung it from a tree so he can practice his spinning moves with the broken blade. The camera's gliding low to the ground. On is kind of fumbling around, using the blade to pull himself along as he tries to leap forward, and the drums and the chants are going on the soundtrack, and he's swinging from the rope with the manual in his mouth, and he thinks. Cut to a couple shots of On spinning inside the farm with the blade, a quick flashback to earlier in his training. The music pauses, thunder rumbles, and back in the yard, in the present moment, he spins and cuts the top off of a stone water barrel. The camera pushes just over the top of the well, pushes in on On as he stares at it, trembling, potent, smiling, and you get the weird subjective shot of a joyful On, lit from beneath, running toward camera through a spray of water, the chants on the soundtrack continue, "Hou! Hee! Hou! Hee!" Back to the push-in, On trembling with energy. A quick shot of the girl watching, then On leaps up, cuts the rope, and spins and flips through the yard, now in perfect control, cutting things down. He stops, marvels at the broken blade.

You watch movies to see stuff like this. Or at least I do, anyways.

45. The Chinese Feast (1995, d. Tsui Hark) - A fine example of 90s Hong Kong film. Makes you feel good just watching it. Makes you feel hungry just watching it. Also, Leslie Cheung wrestles a giant fish, Anita Yuen sings some bad karaoke, and some elaborate cuisine is prepared.

46. Fallen Angels (1995, d. Wong Kar-wai) - "But for now, I feel such a lovely warmth." This, along with The Haunting, Miller's, Old Joy and The Road Warrior, is one of my absolute favorite films. I guess that's more or less my top five right there. And it has what I think is the best closing shot in all of cinema.

47. Kicking and Screaming (1995, d. Noah Baumbach) - My favorite flashbacks, both in terms of how they function in the film, and in terms of how the film slips into them. And it has my second favorite closing shot in all of cinema.

48. Fast, Cheap and Out of Control (1997, d. Errol Morris) - I don't have words to describe how good this film is, or my feelings about it. It lays out so much of what it is to be human just by moving between interviews of four interesting guys. Best edited documentary. Amazing work by editor Karen Schmeer.

49. Dark City (1998, d. Alex Proyas) - Always looking for the way to Shell Beach. Always feeling like Bumstead at the brick wall.

50. The Mission (1999, d. Johnnie To) - Duhn duh duh Duhn duh duh Duhn Duhn duh Duhn.

51. George Washington (2000, d. David Gordon Green) - Wish I'd seen this a few years earlier than when I finally did. Great use of voiceover, combined with some gorgeous cinematography. There's a scene in here, where one character, Vernon is sitting down in part of an abandoned zoo, looking off to the side, giving a desperate soliloquy in a long, unbroken shot. It's one of those pieces of filmmaking that's so good that it kept me going one night, when I needed something to keep me going. The whole film's like that.

52. Milk Punch (2000, d. Erik Gunneson) - A good film by a good friend. Madison in the summer. Watching this in 4070 with a select few a couple of years ago, then going out for drinks after. I hope more people get a chance to see this some day.

53. The Lord of the Rings Trilogy (2001-2003, d. Peter Jackson) - My second favorite film of the last decade. Getting to see the whole thing in one sitting (with intermissions) on Trilogy Tuesday in December of 2003 is one of my favorite cinematic viewing memories. The huge crowd was respectfully quiet during Fellowship and Two Towers. These were the extended cuts, and we hadn't had a chance to see them on the big screen before. Then Return of the King unspooled, it was the premiere showing, and something took hold of everyone. People were shouting and cheering and clapping the whole way through, all the way to the end.

These aren't perfect films. It still feels like they never quite cracked the script for The Two Towers, that crucial bit of suspense about the black ships sailing into view during the Battle of Pelennor Fields isn't there in Return of the King, and the editing is way too cutty - half as many edits would do for most scenes. But the stuff that worked really worked. There were characters, Sam, Boromir, Eowyn, that I identified with as strongly as I had with any other. There was one of the great modern film scores. There was the charge of the Rohirrim. And there was the experience of seeing the whole thing realized, one of those things where you grow up with this story in your head, and suddenly, there it all is before you, the long expected party, Strider at the inn, the Orcs in Moria, Gandalf facing the Balrog at the Bridge of Khazad-Dum, Boromir's last stand, the Rohirrim thundering across the plains, Nazgul flying over the Dead Marshes, Shelob in her lair, the Battle of Pelennor Fields, Eowyn confronting the Witch-King, the Gates of Mordor, Gollum dancing before the Crack of Doom, Sam and Frodo at the end of all things. Whatever flaws the films may have, there's something truly great and emotionally powerful there.

That December's also when things started to get really bad for my folks, and for my father in particular. And things started to go downhill on my end, in terms of grad school. There were some good things around the corner as well, but the overall trend from that point on was down, down, down. I remember flying down to Houston that Christmas, thinking about how much help my folks needed and how little I was capable of providing, and the whole time, I'm looking out the window at the clouds slipping past the sunset, with the beacon lighting sequence running through my head over and over again.

54. All the Real Girls (2003, d. David Gordon Green) - Like George Washington, this is one of those films that make you glad that someone figured out a way to capture light on celluloid.

55. Bright Future - Japanese Cut (2003, d. Kiyoshi Kurosawa) - A great film about the generation gap, and about growing up. There's a shorter international version that's not really worth watching. Too much is cut out. Unfortunately, it's the one that's more readily available. If I spoke Japanese, I'd probably have written my dissertation on Kiyoshi Kurosawa. Probably would have fumbled on that too.

Like all of Kiyoshi Kurosawa's films, this one's an odd, kind of dramatically sideways experience. And the real emotional heft of the film doesn't kick in until halfway through. But when it does, man. The weight that slams into you across a single cut is something. And you'd never think you could feel uplifted by the sight of hundreds of deadly jellyfish floating down a canal, but there you go.

56. King Kong - theatrical cut (2005, d. Peter Jackson) - This film has a lot of problems, and like The Two Towers, it feels to me like Jackson, Boyens and Walsh never cracked the script. The director's cut adds some scenes that are fine in and of themselves, but apart from the scene of Hayes talking about his World War I experiences, they don't improve the film. And given that it's already too long as it is, with one too many beats during the finale, the shorter theatrical cut is a stronger version of the film.

But it's okay for a film to have flaws. They may stumble in the depths, but they can still scale the heights. This one does - Ann soothing Kong with vaudeville, the big dinosaur fight, the "Bye Bye Blackbird" sequence, Kong tearing through the theater balcony to get at Driscoll, the light fading from Kong's eyes before he slips off the Empire State Building. The sight of Ann and Kong ice skating in Central Park is one of those perfect scenes you've never seen before that you always hope to see when you watch a movie. And while I guess the original is a better film, I never cared about Kong in that one. Or any of the other characters, really. Here, I'm identifying with both Ann and the Ape, and with the ridiculous, impossible tragedy of the whole thing.

57. Old Joy (2006, d. Kelly Reichardt) - My favorite film of the past decade. Watching it just kind of fills you with light the way few films do. One of those films that helps you to breathe.

58. The Prestige (2006, d. Christopher Nolan) - Like that sequence in George Washington mentioned above, there's something about this specific film that's kept me going when I couldn't keep going. It's not the greatest film ever made, or the most well made, or the deepest or the most insightful. But there's something about the sheer filmness of it, the way it does all the things that movies can do - the cinematography, the staging, the writing, the performances, the music - it all adds up to everything about movies and filmmaking that grabs me by the soul and won't let go.

59. The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford (2007, d. Andrew Dominik) - I like a good story. I like good storytelling. I like the presence of a good storyteller, the experience of being in his hands as he unwinds his yarn. This film has all these things.

60. Shotgun Stories (2007, d. Jeff Nichols) - Like Barcelona, this film captures what being brothers is all about, but it moves through darker territory. And it deals with forgiveness, redemption, the ties of family, the way we're shaped by those who came before, and the way we shape those who come after us, all things that I think about a lot. The film also does everything I think a modern indie drama can and should do, in terms of following characters through the straits of circumstance in a carefully observed and specifically real place. On all levels, this is American independent filmmaking at its finest.

61. Wendy and Lucy (2008, d. Kelly Reichardt) - This too is American independent filmmaking at its finest. If Old Joy was my favorite film of the decade, Wendy and Lucy was the best. Wish I could make, or be involved in making, a film as good as this someday.


Okay, with that all done, I was curious as to how this list would work out in terms of decades. This is what I got:

1890s - 1930s: 0 - I've actually watched a lot of films from these decades. And a lot are very good, and in a few cases, better than the films I've listed above. It's just that none are my favorites, you know, the kinds of films you want to come back to again and again. There's some from the thirties in the list below, though, that are just off the end of the list above. If I'd made this list, say, five years ago, there'd probably be some films from these decades.
1940s: 2
1950s: 5
1960s: 8
1970s: 7
1980s: 17 - It's pretty clear what my formative decade was. All but one from 1983 or earlier.
1990s: 11
2000s: 11

And for good measure, here's what comes next, enough to take it to 125:

1. Laura Comstock's Bag-Punching Dog (1901, d. Edwin S. Porter) (Seriously.)
2. Island of Lost Souls (1932, d. Erle C. Kenton)
3. The Invisible Man (1933, d. James Whale)
4. King Kong (1933, d. Merian C. Cooper, Ernest B. Schoedsack)
5. The Thin Man (1934, d. W.S. Van Dyke)
6. The Bride of Frankenstein (1935, d. James Whale)
7. East of Eden (1955, d. Elia Kazan)
8. Yojimbo (1961, d. Akira Kurosawa)
9. Sanjuro (1962, d. Akira Kurosawa)
10. Godzilla vs. Mothra (1964, d. Ishiro Honda)
11. Robin Crusoe on Mars (1964, d. Byron Haskin)
12. Night of the Living Dead (1968, d. George A. Romero)
13. Colossus: The Forbin Project (1970, d. Joseph Sargent)
14. McCabe and Mrs. Miller (1971, d. Robert Altman)
15. Martin (1977, d. George A. Romero)
16. Star Wars (1977, d. George Lucas)
17. 1941 (1979, d. Steven Spielberg)
18. Alien (1979, d. Ridley Scott)
19. Superman (1979, d. Richard Donner)
20. Flash Gordon (1980, d. Mike Hodges)
21. Popeye (1980, d. Robert Altman)
22. Used Cars (1980, d. Robert Zemeckis)
23. Excalibur (1981, d. John Boorman)
24. Pennies from Heaven (1981, d. Herbert Ross)
25. Blade Runner (1982, d. Ridley Scott)
26. Conan the Barbarian (1982, d. John Milius)
27. The Dark Crystal (1982, d. Jim Henson, Frank Oz)
28. Poltergeist (1982, d. Tobe Hooper)
29. Stalker (1982, d. Andrei Tarkovsky)
30. The Man with Two Brains (1983, d. Carl Reiner)
31. The Pirates of Penzance (1983, d. Wilford Leach)
32. Return of the Jedi (1983, d. Richard Marquand)
33. Strange Brew (1983, d. Rick Moranis, Dave Thomas)
34. Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom (1984, d. Steven Spielberg)
35. Shanghai Blues (1984, d. Tsui Hark)
36. Day of the Dead (1985, d. George A. Romero)
37. Ran (1985, d. Akira Kurosawa)
38. Highlander (1986, d. Russell Mulcahey)
39. Ironweed (1987, d. Hector Babenco)
40. They Live (1988, d. John Carpenter)
41. Henry V (1989, d. Kenneth Branagh)
42. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade (1989, d. Steven Spielberg)
43. Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead (1990, d. Tom Stoppard)
44. Slacker (1991, d. Richard Linklater)
45. Once Upon a Time in China II (1992, d. Tsu iHark)
46. Fong Sai Yuk (1993, d. Corey Yuen)
47. Babe (1995, d. Chris Noonan)
48. Shall We Dance? (1996, d. Masayuki Suo)
49. Hana-Bi (1997, d. Takeshi Kitano)
50. Babe: Pig in the City (1998, d. George Miller)
51. Last Night (1998, d. Don McKellar)
52. Ringu (1998, d. Hideo Nakata)
53. Velvet Goldmine (1998, d. Todd Haynes)
54. Fight Club (1999, d. David Fincher)
55. The Mummy (1999, d. Stephen Sommers)
56. The Endurance (2000, d. George Butler)
57. In the Mood for Love (2000, d. Wong Kar-wai)
58. Kairo (2001, d. Kiyoshi Kurosawa)
59. Shaolin Soccer (2001, d. Stephen Chow)
60. Avalon (2001, d. Mamoru Oshii)
61. Serenity (2002, d. Joss Whedon)
62. Solaris (2002, d. Steven Soderbergh)
63. Godzilla: Final Wars (2004, d. Ryuhei Kitamura)
64. The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (2005, d. Andrew Adamson)
65. Exiled (2006, d. Johnnie To)


So, the second list:
1890s:0
1900s: 1
1910s-1920s: 0
1930s: 5
1940s: 0
1950s: 1
1960s: 5
1970s: 7
1980s: 23 - again, no surprise
1990s: 13
2000s: 10

Adding them up for 126 total films:
1890s: 0
1900s: 1
1910s-1920s: 0
1930s: 5
1940s: 2
1950s: 6
1960s: 13
1970s: 14
1980s: 40
1990s: 24
2000s: 21

Okay, 1/3 from the 80s is weird. and 2/3 from the last three decades. Huh.

Okay, enough of that.


Edit 10/6/10:

A few more to add to the list, in chronological order:

1. The Old Dark House (1932, d. James Whale) - Finally got around to seeing this recently, and it is absolutely fantastic. Everything you could want in the old "people have to spend the night in a scary house" scenario, from back when it wasn't an old scenario. Very amusing throughout, with fine performances from all involved - not just Karloff's insane butler. Ernest Thesiger as Horace Femm (yes, Thesiger plays a Femm), Charles Laughton as Sir William Porterhouse, and Eva Moore is the bitter old Rebecca Femm in particular. And you can't help but fall for Lilian Bond as Gladys Perkins. Also occasionally scary, in the old Universal fashion. This isn't as iconic as Whale's other horror films, but it's as good, if not better. Okay, maybe not better than Bride of Frankenstein, but it's close.

2. Ironweed (1987, d. Hector Babenco) - Do not watch this if you're having a bad day or in the midst of a deep depression. A very, very dark, very sad film. Really drags you down to where the characters live - Francis and Helen, homeless in Albany, NY in October 1938. Played by Jack Nicholson and Meryl Streep, each in one of their best performances. (There's also Tom Waits. And Fred Gwynne. And a bunch of other folk.) Watching this film is like having load after load of bricks set on top of you while you're facedown in dirt. At midnight. But that makes those brief moments of hope, or moments of the hope of hope, or the memory of hope (like the opening music, and Helen's rendition of "He's Me Pal,") burn all the brighter. To quote Townes Van Zandt, "There ain't no dark til something shines. I'm bound to leave this dark behind."

3. Bodies, Rest & Motion (1993, d. Michael Steinberg) - I guess this may not be a great film. I went back and read some of the reviews from when it came out, and it seemed to catch a lot of flack. As did its four lead characters (and nearly only characters), played by Bridget Fonda, Eric Stoltz, Phoebe Cates, and Tim Roth. But this film, I think, captures something about being in your twenties and realizing a) you don't know where you're going in life, and b) life's pulling you along nevertheless. There's that Springsteen line, "You can get used to anything. Pretty soon it just becomes your life." Some of the characters in the film are waking up to that. Others have made their peace with it. Over the course of a weekend, they kind of bounce off each other. And yeah, maybe this stuff is kind of obvious, and there's a bit of that, oh you can tell it was originally a play kind of feel to it, and many of the lines practically shout their subtext at you, but the subtext rings true, and the things these characters go through are something people go through, and something I went through (not successfully) back in the 90s, and this film gets those moments and those feelings and those conversations down.

Back in the day, I think I liked this film, but I wasn't crazy about it. It was part of that whole, let's go watch Miramax and other indies thing back in the early to mid-90s. When I watched this recently, on videotape, all pan and scan, I hadn't seen it in a long time, not since '95 or '96, probably. I was surprised by how much it connected with me, and I felt like I was catching up with an old friend, or looking back at a past part of my life. But enough about me. (Because who cares?)

The other thing of note about this movie is that it represents a kind of indie film that I don't think gets made very often any more. Can't quite say what that is. It feels less forced, even though in some ways it's more forced. It's very plotted, but feels less plot-driven. Back then, indie film, or the idea of indie film, still felt like a new thing. (Even if it wasn't.) I don't know, I'm not getting down what I want to here, so I'll probably have to return to this entry later. Anyways, Bodies, Rest & Motion. It's like a 90 minute trip back to 1993. Which is a good thing.


Okay, that's it. Scott Pilgrim might show up here at some point, but I've got to let it settle in for a while first.

And at some point, I should add something about Blade Runner, for which I have a new appreciation these days. Not sure what to say, something about being moved by all of these characters becoming aware of or responding to their constructed identities, clinging to them, breaking from them, or both. I don't know, the film sometimes gets knocked for not having interesting characters or an interesting story, but those are precisely why the film has the impact on me that it does. I'll write something later, I guess.

For now, that's it.

Edit 10/20/11:
Okay, Scott Pilgrim doesn't make it on the list, enjoyable as it is. But Black Death (2010) and Another Year (2010) very definitely do. If I ever start writing on this blog again, I might write something about those.

The Lists: Comics

Single Issue Comic Books:(covers from comicvine.com)
Arranged by issue number, and kind of emo, I guess. These aren't necessarily the best comics, though some are. And some are comics I wouldn't like as much if I hadn't read them when I read them. Comic book reading's always tied up with one's personal history as a comic book reader. I'm trying to capture a little bit of that. Hadn't expected it to be weighted so heavily with Vertigo and Vertigo-type material, but there you go.

1. Cages #1 - "Descent" (writer, artist: Dave McKean)

A cat walks down the fire escapes of an old tenement building. An artist checks into the building, hoping to get some painting done. The start of one of the great, unsung works in the medium. I'm a sucker for a good creation story.

This was one of the comics, along with Mr. Punch, Brooklyn Dreams, and parts of Sandman, that had me fired up about comics as a medium, or as the medium in the early 90s. Something about the observational depiction of characters and events in combination with an authorial voice actively engaged in storytelling. It's kind of hard to explain, I guess, but it's similar to the way I'd later come to feel about a certain kind of filmmaking.

2. Big Numbers #1 (writer: Alan Moore, artist: Bill Sienkiewicz)
An English poet returns to her hometown and tries to reconnect with the people she knew, a bunch of other people in the town go about their lives, and some unpleasant Americans plan to build some sort of enormous shopping center.

I often feel like Moore's characters exist more as a function of his ideas than as characters in their own right. And while his ideas and his formal explorations of the medium are usually intriguing, sometimes I wish he'd let his characters just be themselves. He's kind of doing that here, which is why this is my favorite work of his. Things are things, rather than Things with a capital T. You can hear the formal and symbolic machinery rumbling in the background, though, so who knows where this would have gone if the series had gone past three issues. But I'm glad that what's here is here. And the poem at the end, written by the main character, is kind of nice:

Hand me a dead cloud
And a sharp piece of science
I want to see skeleton of weather
And let me map
All maps we have mistaken for the world
And learn by heart the timetable of dice
And in their clutching, self-invented dance steps
See an accidental grace, a choreography.

Still have that memorized after all these years.

3. Bone #2 - "Thorn" (writer, artist: Jeff Smith)
Utterly charming, with great timing. There's something you sometimes see in good comics, more usually in 4-panel newspaper strips than in comic books. It's the way things can suddenly leap forward in the passage from one panel to another in a way that adds impact to a movement, a moment, a gag. I can't quite put it into words, since it sounds like I'm talking about any old panel transition, or any old edit in film, so to see what I mean, look at the two panels in the famous "stupid, stupid rat creatures" gag.

4. Grendel Tales: Devil's Choices #3 (writer: Darko Macan, artist: Edvin Biukovic)
I guess I just like stories where things start to seem like they're going to be okay after all, and then go horribly, horribly wrong. Light sabers are cool, too.

5. Cages #4 - "Time and Origami" (writer, artist: Dave McKean)
There's a sequence here that took my breath away. If you've read this, you know what it is.

6. Local #5 - "The Last Lonely Days of the Oxford Theatre" (writer: Brian Wood, penciler: Ryan Kelly)
Part of a series that follows a woman from town to town, year by year, from the ages of 18 to 32. Here, she's working in a movie theater in Halifax. I guess I respond to the story's slight exaggeration of the way we go about constructing different identities in order to interact with different people. And the melancholy. I always go for melancholy. Because I am a sap. Or a mope.

7. Cages #5 - "Strata" (writer, artist: Dave McKean)
A man and a women meet in a bar. This is perfect comics.

8. Astonishing X-Men #6 - "Gifted, Part 6" (writer: Joss Whedon, penciler: John Cassaday)
"I've got two words for you." Whedon and Cassaday's run on Astonishing is everything that's great about the X-Men, condensed into 25 perfect issues.

9. Gotham Central #7 - "Half a Life, Part 2" (writer: Greg Rucka, artist: Michael Lark)
"Trust me, you want to get it right."

10. Local #11 - "The Younger Generation" (writer: Brian Wood, penciler: Ryan Kelly)
Wood and Kelly really capture something about the movement from early adulthood to just plain living-your-life adulthood. Particularly the way your sense of self shifts while moving through your twenties, what you hold on to, what you let go of, what you carry forward. The whole series does that, but this is the issue, building on the previous ten, is where it really hits home.

11. Bone #16 - "Eyes of the Storm" (writer, artist: Jeff Smith)
It always feels good when the story kicks into a higher gear, the scope widens, and you think, now we're really going somewhere. Things start heading in that direction with Bone #14, but it's in this issue, as Bone, Thorn and Gran'ma Ben try to make it through the forest in a storm while being hunted by a patrol of rat creatures, that you get a real sense of what this comic's going to be.

12. Doom Patrol #19 - "Crawling from the Wreckage, Part 1" (writer: Grant Morrison, artist: Richard Case)
"What do normal people have in their lives?" My favorite comics couple, Cliff Steele and Crazy Jane meet in this issue, and Morrison and the underrated Richard Case kick off a great 45-issue run, also my favorite. This series was one of the things that helped me get through my early twenties. It sounds dumb when I put it like that, but that's the way it was.

13. Zot! #30 - "Autumn" (writer, artist: Scott McCloud)
14. Zot! #31 - "Clash of the Titans" (writer, artist: Scott McCloud)
15. Zot! #33 - "Normal" (writer, artist: Scott McCloud)
Three of Scott McCloud's poignant "Earth Stories," which ran from issue #28 to #36 of Zot! To an extent, you need to read at least some of the preceding 27 issues to get the full impact of these stories.

For most of its run, the comic followed Jenny, a girl from our world, who stumbled into a retro-future utopian world and went on adventures with a teenaged superhero named Zot, who fought villains like 9-Jack-9,
Dekko, and the Blotch. Those first 27 issues were full of unbridled, goofy sci-fi superhero idealism. But with issue 28, Zot and Jenny get stuck in her (and our) much more drab world, and McCloud shift gears. He offers up a series of concise portraits of characters caught up in the distance between ideals and reality, with the ever-optimistic Zot, who can fly and turn invisible, thrown into the mix.

The first of the issues above, "Autumn" focuses on Jenny's mother and her dissolving marriage. There's a splash page I think of every year when the leaves start to change.

The second issue, "Clash of the Titans," follows Jenny's friend Ronnie, an archetypal comic book and rpg geek, through a frustrating day - he argues with a friend about the comic book they're trying to put together, the friend retaliates during a role playing game session by suddenly killing Ronnie's character, and Ronnie's girlfriend, Brandy decides she's going to try dating other guys. In the story, there's an acute awareness of the limitations of the mental territory Ronnie lives in, but there's a sympathy there as well.

The third issue, "Normal," follows Jenny's friend Terry, as she learns that a friend is gay, and struggles with her own sense of identity. In telling Terry's story, McCloud employs some of the ideas he'd later demonstrate in Understanding Comics, not because they're neat but because they allow him to capture on the page what Terry's going through. In all of three of these issues, McCloud tells stories that feel true.

16. Grimjack #37 - "The Revenge of John Gaunt" (writer: John Ostrander, artist: Tom Mandrake)
Grimjack was a comic that blended sci-fi, fantasy and hard-boiled detective fiction. It preceded the grim-n-gritty wave of the 80s by a couple of years, which meant it was drawing from Chandler and Hammett and maybe Leone rather than from Miller and Moore. It was published by a company in Chicago called First Comics, which was kind of a mini-major in the 80s. It was the first semi-indie comic I bought regularly (if you don't count the original, fanzine-ish black and white issues of TMNT). I used to be really into this comic in my mid-teens, which was the right time to read it. It holds less allure now, but I still pull out an issue every now and then. The setting, Cynosure, is one of those fictional worlds that set up shop in my teenage imagination, partly due to writer John Ostrander's collage of genres and settings, and partly due to the art of co-creator Tim Truman, and later, Tom Mandrake.

This issue was kind of the peak of the series. Or the aftermath to the peak of the series, which happened when the lead character, private eye John Gaunt, was killed in the previous issue. (He got better, got worse, died, came back and kept going for another 45 often pretty good issues before dying again.) Gaunt doesn't appear in this issue. Instead, one of the great supporting characters in comics, Gordon the bartender, takes the spotlight, sort of. And one of the other great supporting characters, Bob the gator-lizard, joins him at the end. It occurred to me the other day that, as someone who always found himself to be more of a supporting character in other people's stories than a lead in his own, I probably took on Gordon as a fictional role model.

That's not Gordon on the cover. That's the Major, the villain of the piece. In this issue, Gordon, the unflappable, generally mild-mannered but occasionally heavy-ordinance-packing bartender disguises himself as the beret-and-cape-wearing, sword-and-gun-wielding hard-bitten, terminally depressed alcoholic interdimensional detective Grimjack in order to track down the Major, the vaguely undead Lee Van Cleef-esque evil dimension-hopping cowboy who killed the detective. Then the bartender went back to the bar to tell the sad, 3-foot long, gin-drinking, cig-smoking talking gator-lizard that their boss was avenged. It was that sort of book.

17. Sandman #37 - "I Woke Up and One of Us Was Crying" (writer: Neil Gaiman, penciler: Shawn McManus)
The close to the "A Game of You" storyline. I'm not crazy about the way one character's midwestern family are depicted as a bunch of small-minded hicks (though part of that's due to McManus' usually effective broad caricature art style, and there are plenty of folk like that, after all). Still, as a eulogy for that character, not to mention as a conclusion for this story arc about identity, this issue's so moving, that it doesn't really matter. The last two pages are my favorite close to any storyline I've read, Sandman or otherwise, and about as moving a two pages of comics I've seen. The last page in particular. I always think about it when I've had to say a real goodbye to someone.

18. Sandman #43 - "The People Who Remember Atlantis..." (writer: Neil Gaiman, penciler: Jill Thompson)
I guess this isn't the best issue of the series, but it's a great example of Sandman moving along, doing it's Sandman kind of thing. Actually, the full title of the issue is: The People Who Remember Atlantis - Concerning Mammoths, and Falling Walls - Who Controls Transportation? - Bored, She Makes Little Frogs - Truth or Consequences, and Other Places - Ancestral Voices Prophesying - The Dogs of Art - "When I Dream, Sometimes I Remember How." It's part of a long, rambling road story called "Brief Lives."

The opening segment of this issue, "The People Who Remember Atlantis," is one of those things Gaiman does so well, where, in a matter of a few lines, he weaves a mythology that sounds timeless, as if it's always been around and he's just reminding everyone about it. Later, there's a scene where a receptionist tries to describe Dream's rarely sane sister Delirium to her boss, and Delirium keeps interrupting. This is one of my favorite bits in the series. (Receptionist to Dream: "Is this person with you?" Delirium: "I'm not a person.")

I guess this issue's also here on the list because of the second segment, "Concerning Mammoths, and Falling Walls." It starts with a man getting off a bus, remembering a dream about mammoths (the man is older than he looks), and ends with Death telling him: "You get what anybody gets. You get a lifetime." It's another great example of something Gaiman does so well - craft these little moments that stick in your mind because they're so utterly true.

19. New Mutants #45 - "We Were Only Foolin'" (writer: Chris Claremont, penciler: Jackson Guice, inks: Kyle Baker!)
Great art by Guice and Baker. Baker's inks during this period always made any penciller's artwork seem much more photo-real, something which really enhanced the impact of this heavy-handed but effective story about passing and prejudice. The story's not subtle, but the art is, and that combination is one of the reasons why this issue's stuck with me for twenty-four years.

20. Sandman #55 - "Cerements" (writer: Neil Gaiman, pencilers: Shea Anton Pensa, Bryan Talbot)
Another thing Gaiman does well is tell stories about storytelling. In this storyline, "Worlds' End," a group of people from various places are hunkered down in the Worlds' End, an inn between worlds, as they wait out a multi-cosmic storm that stretches across realities. They pass the time telling stories. This one's from a guy named Petrefax, an apprentice in the necropolis Litharge, a city whose inhabitants are charged with maintaining funeral rites for the cities and worlds all around them. His story has, if I'm remembering correctly, a tale within a tale within a tale within a tale. Actually, in addition to the deepest tale, it has a bunch of tales within a tale within a framing story, which is later revealed to be in another story. If I've got that right. And the reason for telling stories within Petrefax's story reflects back on what the people in the inn are doing, and foreshadows later events in the series.

It's hard to single out individual issues in Sandman, but I guess what I like about this one is how, in addition to its elaborate narrative construction, it captures a sense of the way we tell stories to each other, why we tell them, the way they get handed down to us, and the way we sift through the events of our lives and recast them as stories we tell to others.

In the introduction to his short story collection, Fragile Things, Gaiman says: "I believe we owe it to each other to tell stories. It's as close to a credo as I have or will, I suspect, ever get." That's why his work has been important to me - because stories are important to me.

21. Doom Patrol #63 - "The Empire of Chairs" (writer: Grant Morrison, penciler: Richard Case)
"Come in out of the rain." My single favorite issue of any comic.

22. Shade #70 - "How It All Started" (writer: Peter Milligan, penciler: Richard Case)
The leads of this series, Shade, Kathy and Lenny got put through the wringer over the course of the series. Next to Crazy Jane and Cliff Steele in Doom Patrol, and to a lesser extent, Wesley Dodds and Dian Belmont in Sandman Mystery Theatre, the triangle between Shade, Kathy and Lenny was the comic book relationship I was most invested in back in the early Vertigo days.

Which is weird because there aren't really all that many issues where the relationships exist in any kind of stable form, and because Shade, in particular, gets increasingly unpleasant once the series gets past issue 32. By the later issues of the series, Kathy's gone, Shade's a literally heartless jerk, Lenny's exchanged her unflappable cool for vengeful bitterness directed at Shade, and as a reader, I was kind of exhausted. This final issue of the series isn't the best, but it was such a good thing to see all three characters get a shot at a happy ending.

23. Sandman #73 - "Sunday Mourning" (writer: Neil Gaiman, penciler: Michael Zulli)
I guess I like aftermaths. This hits just the right combination of ruefulness and warmth, of acknowledging loss and the mistakes of the past while embracing the good feeling of picking yourself up and getting on with life. Plus, we get to say goodbye to Hobb Gadling, who was a fine character.

24. The Incredible Hulk #105 - "Armageddon Part II" (writer: Greg Pak, penciler: Carlo Pagulayan)
With a good writer, the Hulk's a great character.

I'm generally not too into the whole praising medium specificity thing. I'm more of a horses for courses kind of person - use whatever works best for the story being told, regardless of whether or not it's unique to the medium. (This is one reason I'm all for voiceover in film if it's used well.) But the splash page is more or less unique to comics, and that moment of opening up from smaller panels to a full page can really enhance a story beat. Throughout the Planet Hulk storyline, Carlo Pagulayan (or maybe it's Greg Pak, or maybe it's the two working together) makes superb use of the splash page. The best one is in this issue, a quiet moment after the storyline's violent climax, the Hulk in the foreground, his fury spent, everything he tried to build gone, his head hanging in despair, and in the background, his companions' ship piercing the smoke, coming down from the sky, with its terrible offer of retribution. Or something like that. And yeah, the whole storyline's about the Hulk building a life as a gladiator and later rebel and later a king on an alien world, which is goofy, but it's comics.

There's also kind of a nice prayer that gets used by some of the characters in the storyline, and gets used at the beginning of this issue as everything falls apart: "Cool my eyes. Warm my heart. Let me dream again."

25. Uncanny X-Men #202 - "X-men... I've Gone to Kill the Beyonder" (writer: Chris Claremont, penciler: John Romita Jr.)
The first issue of X-men I read, way back in the day. Probably wouldn't grab me now as it did then. A de-powered, mohawked Storm leading the group. Magneto newly joined and newly reformed. Rachel Summers overpowered, off on her own, ready to explode. The X-men taking down Sentinels with teamwork. JRjr on art, drawing my favorite rendition of Rogue (my X-man of choice). The heads up in the corner box on the cover. Everything I liked about the comic while growing up is here, except for the whole hated, feared, outcast thing. Which would kick back in soon enough.


And four more comics for good measure:

26. Sensational Spider-Man Annual #1 - "To Have and To Hold" (writer: Matt Fraction, artist: Salvador Larroca)
This, together with Sensational Spider-Man #40 ("The Book of Peter," by Roberto Aguirre-Sacasa and Clayton Crain), kind of serves as a "Whatever Happened To Your Friendly Neighborhood Wall-Crawler," ala Alan Moore's "Whatever Happened to the Man of Tomorrow" and Neil Gaiman's "Whatever Happened to the Caped Crusader."

There's this thing called continuity that, as a long-time comics reader you wind up dealing with, or being aware of. It's not so much continuity with a capital C, the set of things currently considered to have actually happened to a character, as it is a sense of the history of a character or a title. Even if you're not to caught up with it, don't care about it, just want good stories, it's still something that you're aware of. And particularly in the last decade or so, it's something the comics writers are aware of, and sometimes make use of. It's kind of like a natural resource that's built up over the decades of a title or character's existence. And it's a reminder of how much time you've put in reading these things, how many pages you've turned, how much mental space you've given over to the details of this or that fictional life. Every so often, you read a story that makes that investment worthwhile. This is one of those stories.

27. Uncanny X-Men #210 - "The Morning After" (writer: Chris Claremont, penciler: John Romita Jr.)
The best issues of X-Men were always the in-between issues, when they were just being family, watching out for each other. This was the first of those types of issues I read. Here's another more recent, probably better one along those lines.

X-men #210 was also the last issue before the first of the big mutant cross-overs, "The Mutant Massacre." So it's kind of the end of an era. From Dave Cockrum to John Byrne, back to Cockrum, to Paul Smith to John Romita Jr., Uncanny X-men felt like it was unfolding in a single timeframe, as a continuous series of stories. Things started to slip and fade after this, as they always do on long-running titles. This issue is the moment before the family and the title begin to fracture.

28. Sandman Mystery Theater #26 - "The Butcher: Act 2 of 4" (writers: Matt Wagner, Steven T. Seagle, artist: Guy Davis)
This issue, like Shade #70 above, is kind of standing in for the whole series. It's difficult to pick out a single one, since there's a uniformity to each issue, and to each storyline. Apart from the final two issues, and a one-shot (Sandman Midnight Theatre), each story ran in four issue arcs, each following more or less the same pattern: a series of terrible crimes is committed, the golden age Sandman, Wesley Dodds, has some dreams about it (always shown in an elliptic, 9-panel page), he and his girlfriend Dian Belmont, daughter of the New York City D.A., get involved, working in parallel to and usually clashing with the investigation of homicide detective Lt. Burke, as ruminations about life play out in the caption boxes, until the case is cracked and the villain is apprehended. This is intentional, I think. Setting the series in the late thirties, Wagner, Seagle and Davis (who also created a cool if rough retro-punk version of Sherlock Holmes called Baker Street) are going for the feel of an updated pulp or radio series, and they more or less get it right each arc.

What was great about the series was never the mystery aspect (you usually have a good sense of who the villain is by the end of the second issue), but the relationship between Wes and Dian. They're kind of like Nick and Nora Charles, with less drinking (usually) and more between-the-sheets shenanigans. Wes is also kind of an anti-Bruce Wayne, while Dian is the anti-every-hero's-girlfriend-you've-ever-read.

For each arc, the caption box narration alternates between Wes and Dian. That is, for one arc, Wes gets the caption boxes, and for the next, it's Dian. Usually, their thoughts in the captions are only tangentially connected to the case. Instead, although they always parallel whatever's happening in the main action, the captions focus either Wes or Dian's thoughts on the current stage of their relationship. This, along with the increasingly active role Dian takes as the series progresses (both in their relationship and in their investigations) really made the book stand out. Wes is usually the one taking the risks, running around, getting beat up and shot at, shooting criminals with his gas gun, but the book was as much Dian's as his. There weren't many female leads like Dian Belmont in the 90s, certainly not from the major publishers, and really, there still aren't.

29. Doom Patrol #60 - "Brief Candles" (writer: Grant Morrison, penciler: Richard Case)
It's a trope of superhero comics to bring the hammer down on a team, both from within ("Everything you knew was wrong!") and from without ("At their darkest moment, they face their undefeatable foe!"), but I can't think of another time it worked as well as it does in this climactic Candlemaker storyline.

Partly, this is due to Richard Case's art, his evolving character designs for leads Cliff Steele and Crazy Jane, and the understated, absurd yet prosaic world he'd built over the course of his run.

Partly, this is because by the time this story gets under way, Morrison's been subverting the idea of the superhero and superhero comics for over three years. When he cuts loose and just goes for those big, standard story beats, while still holding onto all of the weirdness that makes the Doom Patrol the Doom Patrol, it just gives everything some extra oomph. And it's partly because these aren't mainstay franchise characters who are shackled financially to the status quo (something that undermined what Pak did with the Planet Hulk storyline) - there's no guarantee that any of the members of the Doom Patrol will be around next issue.

Mostly, it's because by this point, you really care about the characters and the unique family they've formed and you don't want to see that fall apart. As the storyline unfolds, you know regardless of whatever and whoever survives, things won't be the same. Which is the way life works.

So when you're reading this issue, and what's left of the Doom Patrol has teamed up with drunken John Constantine-knockoff/parody Willoughby Kipling to try and stop the Candlemaker, a demon summoned from the mind of Dorothy Spinner, the ape-faced girl, and Cliff's leaping out of a skyscraper to get away from the Candlemaker, who just killed one of Cliff's surviving teammates, and Crazy Jane's lost her powers, and Kipling's just had his arm blasted off and wants a drink, and Dorothy's freaking out, and they're trying to get to Danny the Street, a sentient transvestite street that can move from city to city, and they're hoping the Candlemaker won't follow because they have no way of stopping it, and the Candlemaker sends Crazy Jane to hell (depicted on the cover), and Cliff's jumping behind the wheel of a car and slamming it into the Candlemaker just to buy a little time, you kind of sense Morrison is not messing around, that this is it.

You get that kind of sensation these days on some arc-based TV shows, and in some comics that have long, limited runs, but there weren't too many places you could get this, to this degree, back in 1992. Not that I can remember, at least.

The title would continue for a while after Morrison left, under the guidance of Rachel Pollack, who took a decent if not entirely successful run at it (producing some good issues, like issue 74, and creating a character, Kate Godwin, who was a worthy addition to the team). And DC would later revive the title a few times, taking it in different directions. And Morrison would hone his skills as a writer, and go on to greater success and acclaim on other titles, becoming one of the major architects of the New Silver Age, or whatever you want to call it. But Doom Patrol after Morrison was never as good. And there's something missing from Morrison's later work, something that had been there in Doom Patrol and Animal Man.

I don't want to say his later work doesn't have the same heart, or the same degree of compassion, because that's not true. But when Morrison later wrote other books about outcasts, such as The Invisibles and New X-Men, there came to be this kind of "you're either with us or you're against us" thing, along with an insistent attitude of coolness, neither of which were there in his earlier work. These later series felt to me as excluding and, in their own way, as bullying and insistently normalizing as the schemes of any ranting Doom Patrol villain, albeit with a different normality being preached. There would have been little room for a Josh Clay in The Invisibles, for example.

I don't know. Maybe I read too much into these things. Anyways, Doom Patrol #60 was great.

Graphic Novels or Collections:
(Alphabetical order)
1. Berlin: City of Stones, by Jason Lutes
2. Bone: The Complete Cartoon Epic, by Jeff Smith (I don't like the changes he made from the original comics, however. With few exceptions, I think they weaken the story.)
3. Cages, by Dave McKean (Favorite)
4. Doom Patrol: Crawling from the Wreckage, by Grant Morrison and Richard Case
5. Fun Home, by Allison Bechdel
6. Gotham Central: Half a Life, by Greg Rucka, Michael Lark
7. "Ha Ha Herman," Charlie Brown, by Charles Schulz
8. Jar of Fools, by Jason Lutes
9. Local, by Brian Wood and Ryan Kelly
10. Mage: The Hero Discovered, by Matt Wagner
11. Mr. Punch, by Neil Gaiman and Dave McKean
12. The New Frontier, by Darwyn Cooke
13. Planet Hulk, by Greg Pak, Carlo Pagulayan, et. al.
14. Sandman: A Game of You, by Neil Gaiman, Shawn McManus, Bryan Talbot, Collen Doran
15. Sandman: Worlds' End, by Neil Gaiman, Bryan Talbot, et. al.
16. Sandman: The Kindly Ones, by Neil Gaiman, Marc Hempel, et. al.
17. Stop Snowing on My Secretary, by Charles Schulz
18. 'Toons for Our Times, by Berkely Breathed
19. Understanding Comics, by Scott McCloud
20. Why I Hate Saturn, by Kyle Baker
21. Zot! The Complete Black and White Collection, by Scott McCloud


Comic Book Covers:
(Covers from Comic Vine.com)
1.Doom Patrol #78 (Kyle Baker)
2. Sandman #36 (Dave McKean)
3. Zot! #33 (Scott McCloud)
4. Doom Patrol #63 (Richard Case)
5. Grimjack #30 (Doug Rice)
6. Local #5 (Ryan Kelly)
7. The Incredible Hulk #95 (Jose Ladrönn)
8. Local #8 (Ryan Kelly)
9. Astonishing X-Men #6
10. Annihilation: Conquest #2 (Aleksi Briclot)
11. The Invisibles #8 (Brian Bolland)
12. Zot! #30 (Scott McCloud)
13. Cages #2 (Dave McKean)
14. Runaways #19 (Jo Chen)
15. Books of Magic #32 (Mike Kaluta)
16. Doom Patrol #46 (Simon Bisley)
17. Thor #379 (Walt Simonson)
18. Sandman #51 (Dave McKean)
19. Sandman #39 (Dave McKean)
20. Sandman Mystery Theatre #14 (Gavin Wilson, Richard Bruning)
21. The Incredible Hulk #417 (Gary Frank)

And a few more for good measure:
22. Star-Spangled War Stories #103
23. Tales to Astonish #13 (Jack Kirby)
24. Books of Magic #12 (Charles Vess)
25. Books of Magic #13 (Charles Vess)
26. Doom Patrol #59 (Tom Taggart)
27. The Incredible Hulk #96 (Jose Ladrönn)
28. Doom Patrol #28 (Simon Bisley)
29. The Incredible Hulk #373 (Dale Keown)
30. Doom Patrol #40 (Simon Bisley)
31. Local #12 (Ryan Kelly)
32. Doom Patrol #77 (Kyle Baker)
33. Zot! 24 (Scott McCloud)

34. Bone #20 (Jeff Smith)
35. Doom Patrol #32 (Simon Bisley)
36. Sandman Mystery Theatre #47 (Gavin Wilson, Richard Bruning)
37. Sandman Mystery Theatre #48 (Gavin Wilson, Richard Bruning)
38. Sandman Mystery Theatre #55 (Gavin Wilson, Richard Bruning)
39. Sandman Mystery Theatre #56 (Gavin Wilson, Richard Bruning)
40. Sandman #24 (Dave McKean)
41. The Incredible Hulk #372 (Dale Keown)
42. Annihilation: Conquest #1 (Aleksi Briclot)
43. Strangers in Paradise #12 (Terry Moore)
44. The Invisibles #13 (Brian Bolland)
45. The Invisibles #14 (Brian Bolland)
46. Runaways #18 (Marcos Martin)
47. Runaways #19 (Jo Chen)
48. Alpha Flight #40 (Dave Ross)
49. Sandman #32 (Dave McKean)

The Lists: Television

TV Shows:
1. Cosmos (favorite episode: 13, "Who Speaks for Earth?")
2. Doctor Who (favorite episode, new series: 2.13 "Doomsday";

favorite serials, classic series:
037 "The Tomb of the Cybermen," 2nd Doctor, and
092 "Horror of Fang Rock," 4th Doctor )
3. Soap (favorite episode: they all kind of run together, so I'll go with
2.1 The aftermath of Jessica's Trial)
4. Farscape (favorite episodes: 1.16 "A Human Reaction," 2.20 "Plan B";
2.22 "Die Me, Dichotomy"; 3.4 "Wait for the Wheel";
3.15 "Icarus Abides," and 3.17 "The Choice")
5. Homicide: Life on the Street (favorite episode: 3.4 "Crosetti")
6. The Avengers (favorite episodes: 4.4 "Death at Bargain Prices" and
4.9 "The Hour That Never Was")
7. Angel (favorite episodes: 5.15 "A Hole in the World" and 5.16 "Shells")
8. WKRP in Cincinnati (favorite episode: 1.7 "Turkeys Away")
9. The Office (UK version) (favorite episode: The Christmas Special Part 2)
10. Spaced (favorite episode: 1.7 "Ends")


And a individual episodes that are some favorites from series not on the above (who cares?) list:
1. Babylon 5: 4.18 "Intersections in Real Time"
2. Lost: 1.24/25 "Exodus: Part 2" and 3.10 "Tricia Tanaka Is Dead"
3. Friday Night Lights: 1.1 "Pilot" and 4.10 "I Can't"
4. The Twilight Zone: 1.32 "A Passage for Trumpet"
5. Cowboy Bebop: 1.5 "Ballad of Fallen Angels" and
1.18 "Speak Like a Child"
6. SCTV: 4.10 "CCCP 1"
7. Red Dwarf: 5.4 "Quarantine" and 7.2 "Stoke Me a Clipper"
8. Battlestar Galactica (remake): 1.12-13 "Kobol's Last Gleaming"; 3.9 "Unfinished Business"; 3.17 "Maelstrom"; and 3.19-20 "Crossroads"

The Lists: Artists

Arranged alphabetically:

1. Albert Bierstadt
(favorite works: Looking Down Yosemite Valley, A Storm in the Rocky Mountains - Mount Rosalie, and Among the Sierra Nevada Mountains, Californiaa)

2. Frederic Edwin Church
(favorite works: Twilight in the Wilderness, The Icebergs, and The Natural Bridge, Virginia)

3. Edgar Degas
(favorite works: Portrait, Evening (Madame Camus), and L'Absinthe)

4. Caspar David Friedrich
(favorite works: Man and Woman Contemplating the Moon, The Sea of Ice, The Chalk Cliffs at Rugen, Moonrise over the Sea)

5. Hiroshige
(favorite works: Great Bridge, Sudden Shower at Atake, No. 32, Seba from The Sixty-Nine Stations of the KisoKaido, Evening Snow at Ryogoku, and Evening Rain at Matsuchiyama, boththree from Eight Views of Edo)

6. Hokusai
(favorite works: No. 10, Eijiri in Suruga Province, and No. 32, Kajikazawa in Kai Province, both from Thirty-Six Views of Mount Fuji)

7. Edward Hopper
(favorite works: Hotel Room, Early Sunday Morning, New York Movie, Morning Sun, Room in New York, Gas, Automat, Night Windows, and Chop Suey)

8. Gustav Klimt
(favorite work: Portrait of Emilie Floge)

9. William J. Otremsky
(favorite works: Decision, Defining the Past, Allegory of Faith)

10. Keith Parkinson
(favorite work: The Druid Stone)

11. John Singer Sargent
(favorite work: Lady Agnew of Lochnaw)



If I had to pick one, it'd probably be Automat, by Hopper. And just after that, Great Bridge, Sudden Shower at Atake, by Hokusai.

Images mostly from the Artchive.com.

The Lists: Books and Stuff

Books:
(alphabetical by author, favorites in italics)
1. Andre Bazin, What Is Cinema, vols. 1 and 2

2. The Last Unicorn, by Peter S. Beagle
3. On the History of Film Style, by David Bordwell
(David's book was one of those cases of the right book at the right time, just when I was really starting to think about staging and about what goes on within the frame within a shot, as opposed to focusing primarily on how two shots interact. Helped me think about the basic elements of cinema beneath the level of the shot.)
4. The Martian Chronicles, by Ray Bradury
5. Something Wicked This Way Comes, by Ray Bradbury
6. Rendezvous with Rama, by Arthur C. Clarke
7. The Idiot, by Fyodor Dostoevsky
8. After Man: A Zoology of the Future, by Dougal Dixon
9. Roger Ebert's 1994 Video Companion, by Roger Ebert
(Read Ebert's guide cover to cover, back in the day when I was starting to watch film seriously. Introduced me to a lot of good films.)
10. The Haunting of Hill House, by Shirley Jackson
11. The Lottery and Other Stories, by Shirley Jackson
12. The Gunslinger, by Stephen King
13. Wizard and Glass, by Stephen King
14. The Stand, by Stephen King
15. Something Like an Autobiography, by Akira Kurosawa.
16. Orsinian Tales, by Ursula K. Le Guin
17. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, by C.S. Lewis
18. The Road, by Cormac McCarthy
19. A Canticle for Liebowitz, by Walter M. Miller, Jr.
20. Unquenchable Fire, by Rachel Pollack
21. The Films of Akira Kurosawa, by Donald Richie
22. Pale Blue Dot, by Carl Sagan
23. The Varieties of Scientific Experience, by Carl Sagan
24. Whipping Girl, by Julia Serano
25. The Hobbit, by J.R.R. Tolkien
26. The Lord of the Rings, by J.R.R. Tolkien
27. The Testosterone Files, by Max Wolf Valerio


Short Stories and Novellas:
(alphabetical by author, favorites in italics)
1. "The Night Wire," by H.F. Arnold
2. "The Children of Time," by Stephen Baxter
3. "Last Contact," by Stephen Baxter
4. "The Nine Billion Names of God," by Arthur C. Clarke
5. "The Star," by Arthur C. Clarke
6. "The Clapping Hands of God," by Michael Flynn
7. "The Flints of Memory Lane," by Neil Gaiman
8. "The Problem of Susan," by Neil Gaiman
9. "Shoggoth's Old Peculiar," by Neil Gaiman
10. "Seven Types of Ambiguity," by Shirely Jackson
11. "The Daemon Lover," by Shirley Jackson
12. "Trial By Combat," by Shirley Jackson
13. "My Life with R.H. Macy," by Shirley Jackson
14. "The Mist," by Stephen King
15. "The Fountains," by Ursula K. Le Guin
16. "The Barrow," by Ursula K. Le Guin
17. "A Week in the Country," by Ursula K. Le Guin
18. "At the Mountains of Madness," by H.P. Lovecraft
19. "Planet of the Amazon Women," by David Moles
20. "Glacier," by Kim Stanley Robinson
21. "The Open Window," by Saki (H.H. Munro)
22. "Her Smoke Rose Up Forever," by James Tiptree, Jr. (Alice Sheldon)
23. "The Man Who Walked Home," by James Tiptree, Jr. (Alice Sheldon)
24. "Slow Music," by James Tiptree, Jr. (Alice Sheldon)
25. "The Nightingale and the Rose," by Oscar Wilde


Poems:
(alphabetical by author, favorites in italics)
1. "Stop All the Clocks, Cut Off the Telephone," by W.H. Auden
2. "Nocturne," by W.H. Auden
3. "I Am in Need of Music," by Elizabeth Bishop
4. "You're Welcome, Willie Stewart," by Robert Burns
5. "Ae Fond Kiss," by Robert Burns
6. "Anna, Thy Charms," by Robert Burns
7. "Come, Let Me Take Thee to My Breast," by Robert Burns
8. "Green Grow the Rashes," by Robert Burns
9. "The Winter It Is Past," by Robert Burns
10. "A Red, Red, Rose," by Robert Burns
11. "So, We'll No More Go A Roving," by Lord Byron
12. "The Horses," by Edwin Muir
13. "Comment," by Dorothy Parker
14. "The Character of Love as a Search for the Lost," by Kenneth Patchen


It occurs to me I might need to get back to reading more literature. Or something.

The Lists

One thing I've done entirely too often in my life has been to bug people about things - movies they should see, music they should listen to, and so on.

Sometimes, I've done this because the movie or book or song in question provided me with a moment's delight. Given how miserable and deadening the world can be, I think it's important to try and cheer up the people around you, even if it's only for a moment. And if you can find the right work for the right person, you can provide them with some light even when you're not around. It's a thing to do.

Other times, it's because the movie or book or song was in some way important to me, either expanding my understanding of the world around me, or giving me a better sense of myself or of others, or hitting me emotionally, moving me to happiness or sadness, or some combination of the two. Sometimes it hits that emotion of elevation that Ebert's written about recently. Sometimes, it's just something that allowed me to breathe, or to keep breathing when I needed to.

But, y'know, as many folk have pointed out to me, I do this too often, and it gets annoying. People don't have time for these kinds of things. They have the business of living to attend to. And maybe if I'd spent less time gathering things for people, I'd have made it further along in my own life. It's also been pointed out to me several times that, although these things have had an impact on me, they don't on other people. Most of my life, in one way or another, I've been told, "That's just you." And that's true - often it is just me.

So I've been trying to do the "you have to see" thing less. Without success, so to help remedy this, I thought I'd take a one-last-time approach and post a short set of lists, things I thought were good or important or moving or things that shine with a little light. And then try to shut up about these things.

I also wanted to record a sense of "who me was" at the end of the aughts. Just a sense. We're not the stuff we like any more than we are the stuff we own - at the end of the day, it's just a bunch of stuff - but it is a trace of us. And it does reflect who and how we've been.

All of which is a long, dumb way of saying: Here's a bunch of stuff I like that may be worth your while.

Monday, March 8, 2010